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Moving on??

 I have been head over heels in love with this man for months. Banging my head into a wall time and time again trying to show him how much I love him. Today I woke up over him. I realized that true love the love I want wouldn't want me to hurt myself. It's sad because I think he is finally coming to his senses just when I have moved on. 
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Restart

 My mom showed me that its okay to start over. One moment does not determine your life. There are births and rebirths. In the next couple of months, I will be restarting. I just got approved for a new apartment. Ill be moving again its like a new chapter. This last year has taught me alot about myself and what I will and won't do. It's taught me about being alone and being okay with that. Because even if everyone leaves me at least I have me. So restarting may be hard but its possible. Knowing yourself and knowing that youll persevere is key  
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Huntsville

  It is somewhat official, I'm moving to Huntsville, AL.  It's all so surreal I mean it's a great move. I can't afford rent and I'm barely getting by here in Tuscaloosa. This would give me a chance to get my shit together. Get through this upcoming Fall 24' semester and start with the Spring 25'. I need this to get my degree.  The only thing that's a fucking bummer is me moving away from my friends and mother. Moving in with my Aunt and cousin and their fuck ass baby daddy.  Hopefully, I can find a job up there and save money to pay off the remaining lease on my apartment and pay off my credit cards to build some actual finical freedom.  Everything is telling me this is the right decision but for some reason I have this sinking feeling in my chest. Telling me it's the end of a chapter and I'm nervous to close it. Everyone is starting fresh and having new beginnings.  Then there is Jairrius. My heart. I'm in love with this man but staying in t...
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Birthmark

 They say a birthmark is a mark showing where your soulmate from your last life kissed you last. Mine is in between my legs. Does that mean in my last life I was getting some good-good. Hopefully, I can relive that more in this life. 
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Different

Today I woke up feeling different. Uneasy in my body. It's strange to wake up and KNOW that something is off. Perhaps this is what being stable feels like noticing the mania before it starts and being able to articulate the change. I guess this is a win for mental health?
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