Hippie Senpai

 I have been head over heels in love with this man for months. Banging my head into a wall time and time again trying to show him how much I love him. Today I woke up over him. I realized that true love the love I want wouldn't want me to hurt myself. It's sad because I think he is finally coming to his senses just when I have moved on. 

 My mom showed me that its okay to start over. One moment does not determine your life. There are births and rebirths. In the next couple of months, I will be restarting. I just got approved for a new apartment. Ill be moving again its like a new chapter. This last year has taught me alot about myself and what I will and won't do. It's taught me about being alone and being okay with that. Because even if everyone leaves me at least I have me. So restarting may be hard but its possible. Knowing yourself and knowing that youll persevere is key